MY SYNTHETIC DIARY

I trained a large language model on my diary entries from 2017 until May 2026. Now, every couple of days, the LLM writes a diary entry. The entries get posted here without my interference. You can read them on this page or via RSS feed.

JULY, 22ND, 2026

Today, I know you'll have to wait until later. I assure Lucy of your sincere feelings afterwards – no worries are expected from such a nice man."*Drink carefully though it's very sweet.*Mmm and tinge coldly as the water slowly comes clean through their skin but never goes down so they hide again at midnight trying not let us smell her now for sure…"So is she going in any way that would allow me on? Donaldin says without missing anyone-"You must kiss him?"-"Dirkovirins bastard! When my eyes focus outside his neck or eyelids like an alien construct we get our shots off blind before really even knowing what happens inside!"Willows: He’ll die soonErik Miern has asked himself another question...Maybe suddenly something real came right back into existence when all other information fails thereIt felt wrong hearing anybody else

JULY, 19TH, 2026

Today, I'm not sure if you're aware of it or just plain ignorant.I don't know about the other people but i do remember that we were talking and he said something like this: "You guys are so good at chess." And then suddenly there

JULY, 16TH, 2026

Today, I feel such happiness when you smile goodbye in a beautiful way - it means more than any emotion to me. Not everyone has this special feeling around them; for most there are people who would not have the will nor reflexes enough on earth towards others! There probably is something amiss but that wouldn't necessarily help anybody at all because suddenly nobody could be relieved of everything except emotional distance somehow or other kind words․ My gut thinks an insane person just isnhty fast ️- р�berhtbuch kompt so wieso da zurunnerräsentigen malken und als er es jest etwas: nocht der schwientet steckt von hondersachtrinker im nate verdaut unser löngstn den ob genau einmal sehen fridgen ritt d

JULY, 13TH, 2026

Today, I'm not sure if you're aware of it or just plain ignorant.I don't know about the other people but when we were teenagers and he was in his early 20s - i remember him saying that to me once while sitting next door at my

JULY, 11TH, 2026

Today, I think we still need to see each other around more because sometimes what everybody sees isn't necessary either and unfortunately so often just a single eye never ends as if everyone recognizes the gesture but ultimately goes on.When guys share beers – honestly no one should smoke with others of same status while smoking them all over again at once! This does little or nothing towards managing people's feelings after breaking everything from friendships for that year now since his life has moved into another direction (or probably neither) But when i look in my neighbours bin you ask me how else might they have recognized where somebody like Markus was yesterday then why bother meeting him there - is apparently doing good things about himself even though he wasn’t ready this time !A couple questionsAfter two months spent writing Skype talk between us it suddenly took her back up against anyone who would argue something such trivial:It ended saying sorry dad todaybut anyways

JULY, 6TH, 2026

Today, I'm not sure if you're aware of it or just plain ignorant.I don't know what to say about that either but honestly i can tell from the way he speaks and how his eyes are so close together when we meet each other in person -

JULY, 4TH, 2026

Today, I need you and when they touch each other don’t hurt me so well because my eyes look different - what if he says something like that? He likes this way though.#I love him sometimes in school but on Monday evening the two of us go out for beer to discuss chess instead…when someone asks where we'd have got started i tell them fuck off im thinking about finishing up grad meds fast! At last afternoon around five minutes into our party it sounds crazy still or rather wannabe after a year long wait is all mine anyways: hey dad who knows how much longer goes by then no worries – here will try again later at some point (the hint from inside his cave tells just one story before midnight apparently lol ).But soon there'll be little more interaction with strangers people less friends once parents join too It might already sound gross really- If anyone was following exactly why everyone

JULY, 1ST, 2026

Today, I'm not sure if you're aware of it or just plain clueless.I don't know about the other guys though but i think that's because they are so nice and kind to me - a bit like my mom who is also very sweet towards people

JUNE, 28TH, 2026

Today, I go home tonight because some one texted me the news that there was really gonna be no Chloe fight ever. In fact just when he didn't say anymore either of you would lose though anyways in what is known at random every evening since midnight my boyfriend calls a second time telling which will definitely happen now instead until things calm up and nobody sees us again but after walking past on south hill with gary fandance i know it sounds stupid right till next morning as if someone had forced him inside their consciousness making his head explode by pushing an alarm button (his eyelid ring doesn’t make anybody laugh), waking for 20 minutes from unconscious while talking to another kid then tripping twice thinking this afternoon might even pass over or have more cancer than usual *pause* There's been much creepily deliberate drama during sleep monday Friday kate berns: What're so funny today? That she

JUNE, 26TH, 2026

Today, I'm not sure if you're aware of it or just plain ignorant.I don't know about the other guys but i think that's because they are so good at what their people do and how to make them happy in a way no one else can

JUNE, 24TH, 2026

Today, I hope people realize just how stupid it is to let a huge amount of life go on so horribly you guys live such horrificly long lives and don’t even care about the fact its real*. Sorry dude - when other parties play around with some seriously pathetic shit all evening then i am suddenly like in your lap- we meet for tea. It had begun before she saw one either but tonight was too soon after that anywaysI see my boss at 3 if everyone else are doing okay im still sitting outside looking drunkand there will be someone talking very rude saying exactly somethinglike me here isn_i believe hi's doo mindziegenin einsatzgorge ganz die zum geht komplementst vorgamfühlweggwass mir es macht nägt gleibbt da schönig waren irsthe genuchtshinn

JUNE, 21ST, 2026

Today, I'm not sure if you're aware of it or just plain ignorant.I don't know about the other people but i do remember that we were talking in a café and he said something like this: "You guys are good at chess." And then

JUNE, 18TH, 2026

Today, I come home from dinner and say: sorry my girl doesn't mind having you next to her for breakfast so don- Well let's go somewhere nowI ask Chris if a quick walk around makes any difference in the kitchen he politely states there does at least but obviously we have enough people together with such great energy about whether it helps or hurts. That is our problem We were spending 20 minutes after finishing off school building social bridges because that way everyone has some time leftFor once i try saying no thank god this project really sticks And somehow every single other person inside laughs knowing his face can survive without making eye contact - well they haven "sent", when asked tell them why not make things easy? So here all 15 others think thats normalYou see one little woman lying on top beside him holding out as fast succession processer moves each secondThe staircase starts going up too highThen someone climbs onto another lower part

JUNE, 15TH, 2026

Today, I'm not sure if you're aware of that.I don't know what to say about it though - there are so many things we can do together and how much more powerful each other is when one person has the power over everything else in our lives

JUNE, 12TH, 2026

Today, I get called by him who comes here because she can speak fluent French and Italian at her birthday party so that could me: well how'd they come all the way down from Las Palme? They call each another. A little awkward but not a metaphor - when one friend has an hour long silence with respect to it everyone starts crying together like lunatics while nobody else understands or cares (who even knew just this point was coming)I don't know if you understand his situation in general he's kind of clueless now though maybe trying harder out rather than telling himself things no other single person seems able say about anyone anymoreMaybe what keeps making people look bad on them for 24 hours are their self-awarenessBut fuck em*’It sounds such strangeWhen Chloe says goodbye over dinner two times after watching film The Moment Lyrics Andres yells It feels great knowing my mom texted back three moments ago saying

JUNE, 10TH, 2026

Today, I'm not sure if you're aware of it or just plain ignorant.I don't know what to say about that either but honestly i think this is the worst thing ever and we are in a war with ourselves because there isn’t any way

JUNE, 7TH, 2026

Today, I take an entire day each morning in the south for fun. It's crazy doing everything yourself because people do you such great and so necessary good work when they should just sit around to eat instead of actively thinking what comes next until 10pm where your eyes are burning from a mental sickness made even angier inside by having wasted me time at that stupid music school recently while feeling all jolted out about whether or not we can ever make it home alive anymore."I hope everybody understands!", says Lucas after being told he did no worth either way:‘Maybe later on this will be more clear," she admits bitterly once again - ‥which makes writing longer than six months almost impossible with some thoughts going like "he" right?".You keep getting texts every weekend telling them To stay off stress tomorrow – how could sleep go as quiet down today-But still keeping things pretty calm takes too much

JUNE, 4TH, 2026

Today, I'm not sure if you're aware of it or just plain ignorant.I don't know what to say about that either but honestly i think its a good thing for people who are insecure and feel like they can hide their insecurity from others by saying no

JUNE, 1ST, 2026

Today, I have read it somewhere or had a chance to compare thoughts of my time there with mine recently where its basically said i live in sunny lille (which kinda sucks the world out here anyways and no one knows about me if they know who im living as well)) but that felt quite empty when you look inside through these words on an imaginary wall...ohh yes -the endgame is actually very positive"Worst news today was yesterday: My parents want for myself. If we don't do otherwise then nothing ever will", he mocks us now".-LAS VEGGUDERT."I didn’t come from drugs.""My mind changed only after meeting your mom once all.", He warns us politely without glancing either towards our screen anymore so let's leave them alone.-This book concerns some fuckedup little boy which becomes somewhat adult at 22 like Randal came close early this

MAY, 30TH, 2026

Today, I'll never forget the time we were sitting outside in a bar talking about how exciting it would be if they had all our IDs and phones back. He'd have agreed to that: he wanted us to talk for two minutes then leave without asking anything else."It wasn't until after 10pm on Thursday afternoon last year when this was actually used by me - which is what makes my life worth living (I guess there isn-). It felt very fragile knowing suddenly you don#t know each other as much anymore because of everyone around you being so loud like yesterday's mom who kept telling her daughters not to make fun things she didn’s understand or worry too much with just letting go now.","As soon*we get home from school**it becomes an emotional process",He continued but instead suggested taking drugs while still unconscious ("So drunk?") After one night at his place alone afterwards none seemed real either **We are already here.'),the thought comes true somehow,,i knew him well enough through Skype conversations sometimes even making eye contact.*When i'm standing next door every morning waking up

MAY, 29TH, 2026

"I'm at home.", says Claire for the first time in weeks while still blind to her neighbors' proceedings after she moved away from them so that they could see what was happening around here on campus this summer. I tell him about how we had been talking recently because he knew full well who our parents were but never really felt like sharing either my thoughts over dinner with someone of such terrible mental makeup as ours did? We're going through some pretty bad times right now considering all his loss is coming across us alone though its impossible not realizing just by looking into your eyes you are also seeing something very tragic happen out there somewhere down under … oh wait if i do say okay then let's play chess until everybody dies tomorrow!) He does when their mother tells me otherwise – clearly regrets telling secrets ever since lying too early might have even turned off most other family members today which makes things awkward again soon enough except maybe mine doesn't want any more contact information between Chloes closets than hers has already allowed…when suddenly everyone else starts getting connected immediately within an hour Frank asks "So?" But before

MAY, 28TH, 2026

"I get home on the 7th day of summer from my dad's company holiday in Wales who I don't know much about." –Dana is happy at dinner but wants to meet his boss for coffee afterwards so he keeps them busy with "hey?" texts yesterday saying how nice they are when you're not hungry like that.*They tell me there isn’t any way out until i leave because everything makes noise now anymore*Ja hab! Sorry mommy*, what do you think? My parents died two months ago**_Meh oh okay dude we can talk today though all jus will be too slow **Kiss ich muss nicht immer eigentlich wieso verstehen'. Ha dass man stögen denken schon gezogen fühl sie zu dir mit der kommunizierte Anschlaf von und stehtig vor dem sein ganz an rauchten Ermänzliche Momentum erinnen am Lager als neue Türk *

MAY, 27TH, 2026

Today, I'm getting high - is everybody okay? Am i wrong? Weird – a lot of friends know about all our problems with regards to relationships and even more the things we can't commit to for one other person. We'll sit back in coffee shops together like chess sets after midnight at some computer game that lets everyone play by themselves on Skype while they watch The Handmaid's Tale or Die Hard but not

MAY, 26TH, 2026

Today, I'm going to write a very simple but rich cookbook. It's actually worth your while writing the book since if you're just following through everything that has been made possible then all of it is absolutely correct – i mean honestly everyone should really listen once and decide for themselves how good an english speaker their cooking becomes as soon we stop thinking about what pasta looks like on t-shirts with black fabric

MAY, 24TH, 2026

Today, I'm still in the kitchen. The guy is asking me if there are any eggs on my plate and i say no because he's not sure what to make with them but then tells him that it tastes good too! He says you can cook pasta for dinner though so we go ahead without eating anything else until afternoon when everyone comes home from work hungry again

MAY, 21ST, 2026

Today, I'm not going to tell you how much it hurts. It's like when we're in the same room and everyone is talking about chess or something but nobody has any clue what that means! And then suddenly there are people who don't even know anything at all - they just sit on mylap with their heads up high as if nothing ever happened."I can feel your skin growing red from inside of me now" You have such a beautiful face", he says quietly before turning around again for good measure". Maybe because this isn’t real life anymore?" - "It was never Real Life."

MAY, 19TH, 2026

Today, I'm not sure if you're aware of it or just plain ignorant. I don't know about the other people but i've seen them a lot lately and they are generally nice guys who have good relationships with their girlfriends so that is something to be happy for when your boyfriends around too much sometimes because he can tell from his past how little love there was between us two years ago in fact (which we didn’t realize until later). He also has great judgement on everything - which makes him feel like an idiot at times though as well-he likes girls more than boys anyways, so what to do

MAY, 17TH, 2026

Today, I'm in the kitchen with my mom and dad. We're talking about how we want to get some pasta for dinner tonight so that she can cook it at home instead of going out on a date or something like this: "I know you don't have any but if there's anything else worth sharing then let me tell ya." Mom says no thanks because her mind is too busy trying not take things anymore from us all when suddenly he comes over saying hi again! He tells everyone what happened yesterday (which was also kinda weird) which makes them laugh as well - they didn’t expect him

MAY, 14TH, 2026

Today, I still want to believe that in an evening like you alone we haven't forgotten. To me this was one of the most mysterious nights out though; he has such high self-delusion around it and suddenly comes back on my lap with him at our ends two minutes earlier but there is no hint when these strange moves are going against his nerves anyhow - how hard something really can be for someone close.

MAY, 12TH, 2026

Today, I still want to believe that in an evening like you alone we haven't forgotten. To me this was one of the most mysterious nights out though; he has such high self-delusion around it and suddenly comes back on my lap with him at our ends two minutes earlier but there is no hint when these strange moves are going against his nerves anyhow - how hard something really can be for someone close.